2,191 days

We have officially been married 6 years. It seems like it went by so fast but then I think about everything that has happened in the last 6 years and it feels like an eternity.

Our big celebration won't be until the middle of June when we will go to the Tahiti village for a week of relaxation and no children. But we did go out to dinner that night and Jenny was kind enough to watch the kids. 

Chris was so sweet, he had a huge amount of work to get done and didn't sleep at all the night before. He was up til 5 working on research and school things. He had to leave at 7 to go into work. Instead of catching  a couple hours of sleep he stayed up and cleaned the entire house, started the laundry and went out and bought me 2 potted flowers to put in my new pots outside. Now that is true love.

So glad I found this man.

Happy anniversary love.

Two front teeth

This poor little baby has had her share of doctor visits since she has been born. In the month of May alone  we have been to the doctor 6 times filled 6 prescriptions and had 1 surgery. We are a little tired of the doctors.

Little Addi Boo has had huge swollen gums for months. Both times we had been in the ER I had mentioned her gums and wondered if they were the cause of all of her unexplained problems. But both times I was dismissed and told her gums were normal and the teeth would break through any time. After months of having a sick fussy baby I decided to take her in to the pediatric dentist. I felt a little silly and wondered if he would just dismiss me like the others but I just didn't feel like her gums were normal at all. He took one look at them and said he thought she might need surgery. He explained that sometimes gums can have an extra fibrous layer on them and the teeth can not break through on their own. He told me I could keep waiting and let her chew on things and brush her gums to try and get them through, or we could open up her gums for her. I asked him what he would do if it was his child and he said "I don't think surgery is the wrong choice." I hated to put her through a surgery but I couldn't see her suffer in pain anymore so we scheduled the surgery for the next day.

Here she is the morning of giving me big smiles.

 

Here are her huge swollen gums :(

When we arrived at the doctors office the anesthesiologist explained that instead of putting her under general anesthesia (the surgical center refused her case because of how small she is for her age) they were just going to give her a shot of Ketamine (sp?) in her shoulder. This only puts her in a dissociative sleep but does not suppress her breathing or other vitals. I would hold her as she fell asleep and then they would use the laser to   lacerate her gums open. Then I would come back and hold her as she woke up. Sounds ok right? WRONG. Ketamine does not put a baby into a peaceful sleep it makes their eyes glaze over and their body go limp... basically she looked dead. It was horrible. Then the doctor took her and told me to kiss her goodbye. Wrong words to say to a mother as you take away her limp child. I sat in the waiting room (alone...Chris was with the other kids at home) doing everything in my power not to go break down the door and beg them to wake my child up and give her back to me. I think that might have been the longest 15 minutes of my life. When they were done they took me back to her, she was still out of it but she now had two front teeth.

The doctor said her gums had been full of puss. Her teeth would have never broke through, the infection surrounding them would have just eroded them til there was nothing left. Luckily he was able to extract all the puss and infection and her teeth would be able to come in as normal.

It took her about an hour to come back to normal. She was moaning and flailing her arms around, I felt like a terrible mother for putting her through it. The dentist said there is a possibility none of her top teeth will be able to come through. I sure hope he is wrong. If not, Chris will be making a lot of dentist visits with her :)

Her teeth now look awesome and it is easy to tell she feels a tremendous amount of relief. I am so grateful for modern day technology and the incredible things they can do to make these little ones feel better.

What about May??

I always find myself in June thinking... what happened to MAY? Every year May seems to slip through my fingers faster than sand in an hour glass. Maybe it is the fact that May starts off the warm summer months, or maybe it is the ending of school, or the many events May brings, either way May always seems to leave me with a lot of catching up to do. 

Mothers day, our anniversary, Chris's birthday, and Fathers day all occur within a 4 week time period. This year we decided to get one big present for the whole family  instead of little gifts on each occasion. For

r awhile Chris has been wanting bikes so we could go on rides together. 

After purchasing two bikes, selling two bikes, buying another one, buying a trailer and a tandem bike we were finally ready for our first ride. The girls ride together in the bike trailer.

 Kaden rides behind dad on his tag along bike. 

 It has been a great investment. Happy Birthday, Mothers Day, Fathers Day, Anniversary to us!!

 The solar eclipse happened in May. Chris really wanted to drive down to St George to view the "ring of fire" that you could only see down south. We had a chance to go to a Stake Conference at the Conference center o listen to Pres. Uchdorf and Elder Holland speak however, so we stayed up north. The conference was awesome! My mom came up and watched the kids for us so we could go all by ourselves. What a treat! Chris and I got to sit about 10 rows back from the pulpit, we were literally sitting at the feet of Christ's apostles being fed the word. It was an incredible experience.  I think it easily topped seeing a solar eclipse ;)

Chris still wanted to watch the eclipse but had forgotten to buy the special solar glasses required. He was scrambling to find something that would work. First he made a pin hole box, but didn't think that it as nearly as cool as actually watching it. Then he called neighbors for welding masks. We tried looking through a video camera with sun glasses on the lens. He finally settled with taking 2 par of sunglasses apart and rubber banding all 4 lenses together. It looked a little silly, but it worked. Then he discovered if he covered the lenses with his fist and only let a little light in it worked even better. It made for a great visual. 

He said more than once " I have always wanted to see one of these" It was like watching a kid finally get to ride their first pony.  My little nerd.

Here he is with his pin hole box and 4 layered sunglass lenses.

We have had lots of fun playing in the beautiful weather. We have been lucky enough to have Jenny around our house a lot. The kids love her. Kaden will wake up and run straight downstairs to see if she is in the guest bedroom. He is pretty sad when she is not there.

When I grow up

It is 1:30 am and I can not sleep because my head is full of thoughts. My husband is snoring next to me, my 2 oldest children are in the basement snuggling grandma and grandpa, and my tiny one finally gave up the fight and looks like an angel sleeping in her crib. I thought that taking a hot shower would relax me and help with the transition into dream land but instead I am now sitting in bed blogging with a towel wrapped around my wet hair.

My hope is that by expelling my thoughts into cyber space I will be able to A) empty my mind (a little, Heaven knows I can never empty it completely) and B) let my hair dry enough that I do not have to use a blow dryer and wake up the 9 sleeping people in my home. So it seems I will break up the monotony of "mommy" posts that occupy the majority of my little slice of the world wide web, and instead give you ( all 3 people who still read this blog. ha.) a little insight into the crazy tidal wave of thoughts that plague my mind when I should be catching up on some REM.

As I was showering I was thinking of all the things on my never ending "to-do" list. Singing time ideas for tomorrow, well today actually, I wondered if they wanted the kids to sing on Fathers day, I tried to plan how I would teach the second verse of the baptism song and teach Fathers day songs as well. I push that to the back of my mind and moved on to the next thing, preparations for Kadens upcoming birthday party. I still haven't received a package that I ordered weeks ago. It contains crucial items for the bug themed party. What will I do if they don't come? Will the party be a failure? Maybe I should have gone with a different theme. But he loves bugs, he requested bugs, he is my bug, that is the only thing I ever call him these days. Bug. I hope he likes the party. I wonder what he wants most for his birthday..... then this thought....

"I want to be a firefighter"

That is what I hear from Kaden's lips daily. When he grows up he wants to be a firefighter. He wants to wear the red hat and ride in the truck and squirt the fires. Will he truly grow up to be a firefighter? Who knows, but for now that is what he wants to be and he eats his vegetables and takes his naps every day so
he can grow up to be a firefighter.

I don't remember what I wanted to be when I was little. I don't remember having a big dream or big plans, but I am sure that I too wanted to be something when I grew up.

I am grown up now, or more grown up anyway and I still wonder if I am who I want to be. I am not talking about what I would like to be able to do, but who I want to become.

I wish I was an incredible writer, one who could express her thoughts and feelings eloquently and really speak to peoples soul. I wish a was a talented singer and  could sing along side brilliant people whose  music  has inspired me. I want to be a gifted piano player and play complex music with little effort. I want to be able to sew clothes for my children. I want to be able to create beautiful things that others admire. There are many things I want to be able to do, talents I wish to posses, but that really has little to do with who I want to become.

I want to be a kind person, a good neighbor, and a loyal friend. I want to be present with my children. I want to be a mother who listens and teaches. I want to be forgiving and teachable.  I want to be humble and filled with charity. I want to be selfless. I want to be a person of truth and light. I want to be a tool in my Heavenly Fathers hands. I want to be not only a hearer of the word but a doer. I want to be an example of service. I want to be a better wife. I want to be dependable and hard-working. I want to be a means of bringing the gospel to those in need.... so many many things I want to be.

I found myself pleading with the Lord to help me be more like the person I want to be and then I remembered this beautiful quote from Elder Richard G Scott


 "We become what we want to be by consistently being what we want to become each day."


So simple and yet to me so profound.


And so I have decided that tomorrow I will be a little kinder. I will be more present with my kids. I will try to emulate Christ a little more in my life. I will seek out those who haven't tasted the sweetness of the gospel. I will have more charity in my heart. I will be a good friend and find ways to serve. I will strive to be a doer of the word. 


I will never be a brilliant writer or singer or posses any great amount of talent but  maybe by the end of tomorrow I will be a little closer to the person I want to become. And that would be good enough for me.

Good Day

Today was a good day. Taycee and I actually ended the day as friends. I took her to the store with me... because I wanted to. We talked and she told me some stories. We made each other hats out of play dough. Tonight when she went to bed she told me I was a sweetie. We didn't have a major melt down all day.

I just wanted to document it, because honestly these days don't happen often for us. This is proof however that they do happen. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that they happen a bit more often.

This and That

I love the summer time! The warm weather and fun plans and watermelon and extra daylight. It just seems to make everyone at our house a little happier :) So the fact that summer came mid April this year... well that just makes for lots of happy faces!

We had a little water party in our backyard with some fun neighbors. Addi got to wear a swimsuit for the first time and play in the kiddie pool with me. She liked it and she looked adorable.

Kaden was over the top excited to have friends over to play

One day Chris decided to climb the tree with the kids. I agreed to take a picture if he would immediately return them back to the ground ( which was about 7 feet below.)

 This is the usual arrangement in our bed at night. Okay I take that back... usually they are positioned right in the middle of the bed. I took this picture at about 2am one morning before I hauled her little bum back to her own bed.

 Taycee has a fascination with tying things. Most of our door knobs are wrapped and tied with string, shoelaces, belts, headbands or anything else she can find that will work. One day she used one of my sweater belts to tie our closet door to a hanger then she hung clothes across the belt. Yesterday I walked into Addison's room to find this lovely piece of art....

Oh well, I guess there are many more destructive things she could be doing. I know because at one point or another she has done most of them.

My kids are funny... like really funny. I wish I could remember all the things that they say in a day. But I don't. One time Taycee was being hilarious and Chris said "oh man, you crack me up" she kind of fake laughed and said "oh dad, you are a cracker too!"

Taycee started dance a few weeks ago. So far she really likes it. It is actually a half dance half gymnastics class. She is a natural performer and prances around on her toes like she owns the place.

Addison is thinking about crawling... but those thoughts have yet to transition into action :) She will be 1 next month. ( I can't handle that, someone please fix it!)

Kaden turns five in a couple weeks. WHAT? Oh man. We are having a "bug" party for him which is appropriate since I call him "bug" more than I call him by his name.

Taycee has grown 3 inches since August. 

Addison has two teeth coming in on top and the doctor warned me that there will be lots of blood accompanying them because they are purple and have caused huge blood blisters. I am sure I will freak out and have a huge post about that when it happens. 

We are most likely moving to China in a year.

I am itching to go on a vacation somewhere. I have booked a stay at the Tahiti Resort in Vegas. June 18th can not come fast enough. 

Summer has arrived and I couldn't be happier about it! :D

MothE.R.'s day

Mother's Day started bright and early with a trip to the E.R.. Okay okay actually the doctors trip started late Saturday night but it went well into the early hours of Mother's day. 

It all started Saturday night when we went to Avengers. The Claytons were still in town and they offered to take our kids to the Lorax while we went to see Avengers. (Which by the way we loved) We kept Addison with us, right when the movie started she was unusually fussy. She is normally perfectly content to sit and snuggle. I offered to take her out while Chris watched the movie. While I was out bouncing her I noticed she seemed to be breathing faster than normal. I didn't think much of it and finally got her to sleep. When I took her back into the theater and sat down I noticed her breathing again, and then a little while later she started to tremble every once in awhile. We had taken her into the ER the Saturday before Easter for similar things and she ended up having a double ear infection. I worried that the same thing was starting to happen. When the movie was over we headed straight to the doctors. We spent 2 hours at Wee Care trying to find out what was wrong, her ears looked ok, her throat was a little red, but there was nothing that stood out as the cause for her respiratory rate which was about 87 and fever which was at 103. They took a chest X-ray which came back clear and then did a breathing treatment. The breathing treatment was horrible she screamed the entire time. Her respiratory rate after was up to 101. They decided to send us to the ER for some blood work. Unfortunately the Davis Hospital is not covered under our insurance so he headed up to Mckay Dee. After all was said and done it was 3 oclock and they still had no answers but her breathing was slowing down so they sent us home with order to come back if her breathing got out of control again.

When 7 rolled around Sunday morning I was exhausted. I had to lead the primary singing in Sacrament meeting so I rolled out of bed and got into the shower. Chris was so sweet and had gotten up before me and made breakfast. I don't know how he did it I could barely function. Church went well, nothing like last week (thank the heavens). The kids did well in sacrament meeting, everyone said they could hear Kaden and Taycee above everyone else. I guess that is what happens when your mom is the primary chorister and makes your practice the songs every day. Chris came home with the baby during the last two hours and made me a fresh batch of my favorite chocolate chip cookies. 

After church we went to my mom's house for some yummy pulled pork. The men did a wonderful job with dinner and the mom's got to just lay back and relax. Everytime I sat down I thought to myself "this is a really comfortable spot.. I could fall asleep here" haha I was really tired. We left my mom's house at 6 and the kids fell asleep in the car on the way home. We couldn't get the to wake up when we got home, they were out of the night. I guess we were all a little tired. Chris gave me a massage and put me to bed too. Minus the ER visit it was a wonderful mother's day. 

 I am so grateful to be a mom to these three crazy kids. They keep life interesting.

 I am so grateful to this man who takes such great care of me!

Hope all of the mom's had a wonderful day.