Before I ever was a mom, I knew so much. (insert uncontrollable laughter) I had taken many a child development class and new just how each stage would play out with my own perfect text book children. Then I had my first precious little baby boy and I realized just how much I didn't know. I entered the school of motherhood and each child has brought with them their own class, tests, and learning. It's been a transformative process.
However I dare say no child has shaped me in the way this princess has. Few things about her are textbook, and from the moment she was born she has pulled me into a world of defining growth. Each challenge we have crossed together has made me a little more humble, a little more empathetic, a little kinder, a little more sensitive to others, and a little more aware of just how precious this special one is.
She has a way of making me consider things I never thought of as possibilities, and she has made me refine the gift of mother's intuition. I have watched her grow from such a tiny helpless state and I am constantly in awe at the fight that is in such a little body. She is a princess through and through but don't let that fool you, this girl is tough as nails.
As we entered in the world of therapies last year I had many different "professional" opinions on just what was best for this little one of mine. It has been a tricky process sorting through the recommendations and none of them have ever really felt right, and I have learned the beauty in saying "as her mom, I just don't feel like that is the best thing for her". I have also learned to expect the questioning looks from the professionals who have taken the classes and know it all. To be fair, I do value their opinion and I do think they are quite knowledgeable in their areas, that is why we went to them in the first place. I also think that what they recommend is probably the best course for most kids. But she is not most kids, she never has been.
And so we continue to grow and transform together. There is so much greatness in her, I see it every day. It is a privilege to be her mother and be able to grow with her. I have no doubt she is not done stretching my comfort zones and making me question the things about motherhood I was so sure I already knew. There is one thing, however, that I have known from the moment she was born and that knowledge has never changed. She is special, a valiant spirit sent here for a divine purpose. A daughter of a King.
